When you least expect it...

... Happiness can pop up in the most unexpected places.

After being the most spontaneous I have ever been in the 36 years on this earth I am happier than I have been in a long time. 

I'd love to tell all, but right now I don't want to jinx it.

Watch this space and hopefully I shall divulge all that is happy and wonderful. For now, let me just say, thoughtful, honest, open, loving and caring is the way forward and is the path I'm currently walking down!

It's been a while...

... I has forgotten about this.

I had lost my love of writing.

I was changing, evolving, learning.

I have changed, my life has changed and so far after a bloody tough 2013, and a testing yet fun Summer. I am happy. I feel grounded, in control, free from drama and in a generally good place. Yes, there could be improvements but life is good... And I think my love of writing may be returning

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Passenger - Let Her Go [Official Video]

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast

You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast

Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved her too much
And you dived too deep

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go
And you let her go
Well you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go....

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years (Official Music Video)

Heart beats fastColors and promisesHow to be braveHow can I love when I'm afraidTo fallBut watching you stand aloneAll of my doubtSuddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died everydaywaiting for youDarlin' don't be afraidI have loved you for aThousand yearsI'll love you for aThousand more
Time stands stillbeauty in all she isI will be braveI will not let anythingTake awayWhat's standing in front of meEvery breath,Every hour has come to this
One step closer
I have died everydayWaiting for youDarlin' don't be afraidI have loved you for aThousand yearsI'll love you for aThousand more
And all along I believedI would find youTime has broughtYour heart to meI have loved you for aThousand yearsI'll love you for aThousand more
One step closerOne step closer
I have died everydayWaiting for youDarlin' don't be afraid,I have loved you for aThousand yearsI'll love you for aThousand more
And all along I believedI would find youTime has broughtYour heart to meI have loved you for aThousand yearsI'll love you for aThousand more

Paula Cole-Where have all the cowboys gone

Oh you get me ready in your 56 chevy
Why don't we go sit down in the shade
Take shelter on my front porch
The dandy lion sun scorching,
Like a glass of cold lemonade
I will do laundry if you pay all the bills

Where is my John Wayne
Where is my prairie song
Where is my happy ending
Where have all the cowboys gone
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/p/paula+cole/where+have+all+the+cowboys+gone_20106206.html ]
Why don't you stay the evening
Kick back and watch the TV
And I'll fix a little something to eat
Oh I know your back hurts from working on the tractor
How do you take your coffee my sweet
I will raise the children if you pay all the bills

I am wearing my new dress tonight
But you don't, but you don't even notice me
Say goodbyes
Say goodbyes
Say goodbyes

We finally sell the chevy
When we had another baby
And you took the job in tennessee
You made friends at the farm
And you joined them at the bar
Almost every single day of the week

I will wash the dishes while you go have a beer
Where is my Marlboro man
Where is his shiny gun
Where is my lonely ranger
Where have all the cowboys gone
Yippee yo, yippee yeah

Exciting and new

Well... Hasn't this been a busy few months!

So aprox two months ago i applied for a job as a Marketing Assistant for a college. Its been a long process that has had a lot of stop/start moments, but finally i shall be starting my new position next Wednesday.
I have to admit, i am very excited as i love new challenges but i am also very scared!!
I have worked in my current job for four years now and i'll be honest, they are rather lapsidaisicle about a lot of things. Therefore i feel as though i am starting from scratch with no experience of the working world at all. To add to this, i shall also be doing a college course. Its only one day a week for a year but even so. A new 'proper' job and going back to college!! What was i thinking!

So on my penultimate day at my current job i got to thinking what i have to look forward to as 2012 finishes....

At the weekend i baked my 1st Christmas cake! It is now been fed with brandy every week until i am ready to decorate it. Which is the 2nd fun part!

I think i am going to opt for a simple design like the Holy Leaves.



Tonight i am going, with my girlfriends and my Dolly to see Twilight. I am excited for this and before you ask, i dont know if I am Team Edward or Team Jacob.

I read all the books first and over time have grown to love the films (i have a major issue with books to movies and how badly they are done and how horrific the actors are they choose to play the characters!)

So tonight we shall go to dinner and then embrace our inner Vampire!

Team Jacob or Team Edward?



This weekend i am going out with my sister, she is younger than me and i dont think we have ever been out, just the two of us before. So, that is exciting in itself, but what is more exciting is that we are going to see Professor Green... I have an actual school girl crush on him!!

Dont as what it is, he's just lush!



This leads me to Wednesday... My First Day!



Scaredandexcited.com

Since my new job is full time, something else which is new to me as i haven't worked full time in 13 years since Dolly was born, i have had to go the majority of my Christmas shopping already. So comes the next bit... The wrapping. Now i usually get excited about this but as time goes on i am realising that all it causes me is a bad back and mess. Alas, it cannot be avoided and the end result is always a joy!

The best feeling is giving.







Then comes the decorating of the tree. Every year i want a real tree but i am such a perfectionist i fear that once the netting is taken off i am left with a sparce, un even, wonky attempt at a tree. I do however this year need a new fake tree... So the search begins for a full and fabulous fir!



I wish my house looked like this!



And so comes the Christmas parties, the get togethers. The practice run of eating, drinking and being merry!!
As i will have only left my job for three weeks and i organised our Christmas party, i still get the pleasure of attending!

Fun times



Last but not least Christmas day...

This year my family will be coming to me and i am so excited to get my 'cook on!'

YUMMY!!!

So, if i dont get chance (because my new job will be so busy!)

Merry Christmas to everyone

May 2013 be happy and filled with love and laughter

xxx

The winds will change as will the clocks....

Autumn.

Such a gorgeous season full of vibrant colours, chilly sunshine and the excitement of Halloween, Bonfire night and of course 'Preperation Christmas'

Since October seems to have crept up on us so damn quickly, i, like everyone else is preparing for 2012 to end. Usually preparing for something to end is a sad time in some way or another but i find this time of year to be so exciting and the prospect of a new year, thus a new start is always exciting and yes, admittedly sometimes scary!

For me i have so much already to look forward to in the coming months.

There is the posibility of a little mini break to see my good friend in Malta.

A new venture

Halloween and a P*A*R*T*Y!

Bonfire night

And since i live in the city, its a must i celebrate....

The Plaque reads....

GUY FAWKES BORN HERE

APRIL 13th 1570

The notorious gunpowder plotter who attempted to blow up the Houses of Parliament on November 5th 1605.

He was hung, drawn and quartered in Westminster London January 31st 1606

The winds will change as will the clocks, the nights will draw in and the wolly jumpers will come out.

Love it. Embrace it. Enjoy it.